Chapter 160  

. To think she used to love somebody. Wasn’t it supposed to be Count Glacia? Amethyst thought.

Amethyst sighed.

she reprimanded herself. When she was younger, she had always been compared to her younger sister, on looks, on studies, on capabilities… It left a bad taste on her mouth.

When she grew a little older, she developed a habit of comparing herself with her friends, and their parents against hers. She got frustrated at the different standards of living, got jealous of her friends on things she couldn’t have, and they could.

The older she got; it became an obsession. Everybody around her became a subject for comparing herself against. People her parents knew, her friends, her cousins, her university batchmates, her work colleagues…. She got into a habit of comparing herself wit them and depreciated herself repeatedly.

She was so convinced of it that she felt like a failure. Gradually she lost all motivation to attempt anything in life. So, she started giving things up and ran away from things she couldn’t confront.

Her self-esteem had gone so low that she agreed to marry whoever her parents chose. She felt he was more than good enough for her and would never deserve anyone better. Her marriage life turned out to be so difficult because they both weren’t compatible with each other.She tried hard to live up to his expectations, to try and make her marriage work. She didn’t want to fail in that too. She was afraid if she failed this then there wasn’t anything in life that she could achieve.

She persisted until she couldn’t anymore.

she chided herself. She accepted the fact that Count Glacia and Lady Roelter were better and prettier than her. When compared to her, she didn’t have anything. she reassured herself,

She realized that she would have to accept that and move on. She would have to find peace within herself if she wanted to be happy. But another problem lingered: Contract Marriage

When the time comes, she would have to leave the palace anyway.

A tear rolled down her cheek.

***

Alexcent had worked late into the night the day before. He had taken this day off to rest. He planned to take Amethyst out to the lake in the middle of the city and spend some time with her.

thought Alexcent. He got ready and called for Pon.

“Where is Ash?” he asked.

“She is in the studio,” informed Pon.Alexcent nodded. “Have a carriage prepared,” he said, “I will be going out with Ash today.”

“Yes, my lord,” said Pon and left to do his bidding.

Alexcent walked to the studio. He imagined how excited she would look with the idea of going out. She forgot to knock and opened the door to walk right in.

As his gaze fell on her, he realized she way crying. His red eyes flashed. “What’s wrong?” he said and reached Amethyst in two strides.

Amethyst was taken aback and unable to utter anything. “Who did this, Ash,” he said, angrier than ever, “Tell me. Why are you crying?”

Amethyst wanted to say something, but her mind was blank with the shock of Alexcent appearing so suddenly.

“Pon!” called Alexcent in fury.

Pon rushed into the room but was surprised and completely unaware of the reason why Amethyst was crying. When he saw her last, she was happy and humming lightly as she prepared to paint.

Meanwhile, Amethyst had no idea how to explain the current situation.

“I…,” she sobbed. As she was unable to form any coherent sentence, Alexcent wrapped his arms around her. The sight of her in sorrow made him furious with everything. Each tear drop tore his heart.

“It’s okay if you can’t tell me right now,” he said, gently, “It’s alright.” He stroked her hair trying to soothe her. He carried her into his arms and walked to her room. He placed her on her bed.

“Ash—”

“I… hate you,” stammered Amethyst and turned away.

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