Chapter 8  : I Doubt I Fall in Love with My Dad

I was back.

Having been out for a whole day, I was just back. Of course, I meant I was back to my dad’s house.

I thought he would never move back to live with me and my grandma.

Because I was told that instead of renting this house, my dad bought it! Yes, I couldn’t believe that he would buy a house so fast, just because of having troubles with his mom.

Someone asked me whether I had realized that the relationship between me and my dad was not that simple.

Yes, I had to admit that I had the same feelings. And gradually, I found the original intention I wrote this post was not about the matter that my dad was a cross-dresser. Instead, maybe I also wanted to figure out the question, which seemed to be the real reason.

Anyway, I would think of it and tell you.

Then let me tell you about my magic experience today.

In the morning, when we had breakfast, he suddenly mentioned that there was a world-class amusement park in our city, which had been built and opened for more than a year. But he had not yet explored it.

Then he asked me if I had time to go with him.

Yes, what he said was “explore”.

With a poker face, he said it in a serious tone, as if the person sitting in front of him was not his son but his creative director. Well, I felt sensitively that he was pretending to be serious.

Probably I did not respond to his words for a long time, he raised his eyes to me and asked, “Are you not free?”

How dare I confused him! So I said “yes” at once.

He looked me and said, “So, will you go with me?”

I thought I must be crazy at that time. I said, “Your industry have nothing to do with the amusement park. So what do you want to explore? You just want to play with me, don’t you?”

After said that, I saw his face falling.

Then, I felt so sorry to say that. How dare I revealed him! Was I crazy?

Just as I was thinking over various plans for making the conversation up, he replied, “Yes, I just want to take you to play.”

I was speechless when I heard that.

As I had just made a promise that I would pay attention to what I was thinking about my feelings to my dad. So I was gonna tell you the truth about how I felt at the time.

—I thought I was tempted, palpitating with excitement.

—To be honest, this was not the first time I had such feelings.

I didn’t know when I started to feel that my heart beaten faster, with my ears feverish and my thoughts drifting due to what he said to me.

—Until I found that he was a cross-dresser.

Because of this hobby, I began to question his sex orientation, thinking about his intentions. And there was always a faint voice in my mind saying, “Go tempt him, seduce him, then find the evidence.” Also, your thoughts about me and my dad, in fact, brought me indescribable happiness.

—Oh shit, what should I do? Did I become a gay now?

I felt so confused now.

I needed to think calmly.

After drinking a glass of water, I was much calmer now.

So I was gonna tell you today’s trip to the amusement park, then went to bed (or insomnia).

I was happy to hear what he said. So I immediately packed up my bag and went to the amusement park with him.

Both of us were wearing T-shirt, shorts and sneakers. And we bought the same hat at the store at the entrance to the amusement park. Did you know how hard it was to find two hats suitable for boys to wear in this amusement park of fairy tales?

Anyway, when we stood together and dressed in youth, I felt that the girls around us were looking at us.

From the moment we arrived at the amusement park, I felt that he had prepared for playing with me this time for quite a long time.

This was the first time we came to this amusement park. So, I knew nothing about it except that there were a lot of tourists.

But my dad, since entering the amusement park, bagan to use the strategy— VIP tickets.

You knew that there were a lot of privileges for VIP in this amusement park. But those VIP tickets couldn’t be gotten on the spot. However, he got all VIP tickets for those attractions, including some attractions which should be reserved instantly. So he was quite familiar with the strategy in this amusement park.

So, I made sure that he must prepare for it for a long time!

Thinking of it, I felt quite happy, even enjoyable of it.

But, similarly, I was nervous and confused.

Why did he do that?

We played all day. Basically we played most of the hot big attractions. And he took care of me well all the way.

I had to say that there were a lot of moments making me feel warm. Even I felt that we had recovered the relationship in the past. The atmosphere and feelings between us were as perfect as a dream.

However, he was just so thoughtful about today’s plan, enjoying the time with me as we were young. But he didn’t go beyond the limits of our relationship.

Therefore, at this moment, I was not only happy but also full of melancholy.

—What was he thinking about?

—Could I talk with him?

—If I asked him, would he break my leg?

OK, I had to admit that you won.

Maybe, this post should be renamed as “I Doubt I Fall in Love with My Dad”!